Secrets

  That moment when a friend says, "I know you --" and you automatically say,"No you don't!" really harshly without meaning to. Because a lot of times they don't, not at all. No one does. Not even you. 
   Friends can be so mean sometimes. They think it's OK because they know you and everything, but it's not really. It still hurts every time.  Some friends pick at everything you say so that you just wanna stop talking. Can't there just be a perfect friend somewhere? Why is life so hard? 
      And then you think, "I'm not going to be friends with them anymore." and they do one nice thing and then you can't shut them out. 
I heard this song the other day and I was so shocked about how much i related to this that i started crying. 

The Phone Rings
Don't Wanna Pick It Up
I'm So Scared
I'm Gonna Say Too Much
I Tip Toe Around Your Questions
Why You Gotta Dig So Deep?

Tears Fall
And The Glasses Break
Inside These Walls
The Floor Boards Shake
From Outside
It's Alright
Long As You Looking From Fifty Feet

I Been Trying Trying
Hold My Head Up High
I Been Lying Lying
Keeping It All Inside
Trying Not To Trust You, Yeah
Take Another Leaf, I'm Broke Yeah Yeah???

I'm Done, I Give Up
I Don't Wanna Pretend No More
That's It, So What
I've Lost A Friend Before
Gonna Say It Like It Is
No More Wondering What If
That Ain't The Way You Oughta Live
Cause I Don't Want You To Love Me
If You Don't Wanna Love Me For Me

Cause I Don't Want You To Love Me
If You Don't Wan' Love Me For Me

A Doll House Is All That You Could See
But It's So Far From My Reality
I Got Problems, I Got Issues
Sometimes It's All Too Much For Me
Wrap It Up With A Pretty Little Bow
But There Are Some Things You Can't Sugarcoat
So I Give It To You Anyway
Even Though It Won't Taste So Sweet

I Been Trying Trying
Hold My Head Up High
I Been Lying Lying
Keeping It All Inside
Maybe I Could Trust You, Yeah
Take Another Leaf, I'm Broke Yeah Yeah???

I'm Done, I Give Up
I Don't Wanna Pretend No More
That's It, So What
I've Lost A Friend Before
Gonna Say It Like It Is
No More Wondering What If
That Ain't The Way You Oughta Live
Cause I Don't Want You To Love Me
If You Don't Wanna Love Me For Me

Sick Of All The Fighting
All The Slamming Of The Doors
The Pain, The Parents, Too Deep You Know
Step Back, Step Back
Can You See It Through My Eyes?
I Know, I Know
Maybe A Surprise
Don't Wanna Be Perceived For Something That I'm Not
Just Wanna Be Accepted For The Little That I Got
If You Could See Me Now In My Glass House
Not Ready To Let You In

I'm Done, I Give Up
I Don't Wanna Pretend No More
That's It, So What
I've Lost A Friend Before
Gonna Say It Like It Is
No More Wondering What If
That Ain't The Way You Oughta Live
Cos I Don't Want You To Love Me
If You Don't Wanna Love Me For Me


Read more: CHER LLOYD - LOVE ME FOR ME LYRICS 

If I could write one song in my life about my life, that would be it. I just want to sing that out to the world so they know that i'm not the me they think I am. If I could just let someone in. Maybe I will. Maybe a little. Maybe today.

*Stay Open
-- Sierra Yu